Wednesday, January 02, 2013

Happy New Year!

Well, as another year comes to a close everybody's reflecting( or maybe it's just me). I get to the end of a new year and I think a few things:
1. Where did the time go?
2. What did I do with all my time this year?
3. I'm excited about a new year.

there' s something about a fresh beginning. there's something about the beginning of each new day..the sunrise(which I hardly ever see), that smell of fresh coffee brewing, and maybe bacon and eggs cooking, or just toast and cheerios.
But especially there's so much excitement at the start of a new year. Everyone has great expectations, hopes of a new, healthier, more prosperous year, excited about what God has in store for us this year.

We were talking at home yesterday that Bela will be 6 months old this Saturday. So in the same amount of time that just passed, she will be one year already! As fast as these past 6 months flew, so will the next 6, and the next, and so on and so forth. 

Most of you can guess what we're most looking forward to this year...Bela coming home FOR GOOD, no more cancer, having two healthy children!

But you know, we sure were counting on having that this past year! So we don't know what God has in store, but we know that His grace is sufficient.
and it's scary to state that "in public", you know, because then, well, do you ever feel like if you say something like that, then God's going to test you in it? "OK, Laura", He's thinking (in my mind), "let's see if you really believe that My grace is sufficient! You think LAST year was hard???!!! Ha!"

I know that's not the truth, but sometimes I'm scared that at the end of this year, I may have reason to say, "Wow, and I thought Bela's trials were hard!  They weren't NOTHIN compared to [insert 2013's tragedy here]" 

but why think the worst? ok, so yea, the above could happen, but let's just cross that bridge when/if we come to it. And live today because that's the only day promised to us. ok, now i'm getting into cliches. 

But recently Beto and I were talking and he mentioned that he wouldn't have traded what happened to us last year for anything. Because we've met really amazing people that we would've never met any other way. And we've been blessed to the point that now we want nothing more than to go out and bless others in the same way. And now we really can say "We know exactly what you're going through" and can comfort others in the same way we've been comforted. We know what it is to be in need. We know just a little bitmore about how to pray specifically for people in similar situations. 

And we've gotten closer to God, and to each other. we've gained perspective, and we've been changed, hopefully for the better, forever to live our lives differently. This past year has changed us forever in ways we didn't think were possible.

So as I reflect I wonder what is my point? Life live to the fullest every day? Carpe Diem, seize the day, blah blah blah and all that jazz?

What have I learned this past year? That sometimes life is crappy and you don't know if you're going to make it but you have no other choice but to keep breathing and somehow time passes and you survive.

Is that all I learned in 2012?

I learned that I want to take better care of myself and my family. 
I learned that I want to slow down and make more time for God and my family.
I learned that I didn't learn as much as one might think.  It's more that I was REMINDED, in a painful way, of what I already knew but wasn't putting into practice. 

What did you learn in 2012 and what are you looking forward to in this new year?

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